Progress Notes #1

It’s probably a “well, duh” moment, but it’s occurred to me that the reason I’ve learned music stuff relatively quickly, is precisely because I’m happy to throw out half finished stuff, ideas, and whatnot, without concern for quality control at this stage. Which means that if there’s something wrong somewhere, or something isn’t working, or a sound needs changing etc etc, there’s not a great deal to the track yet, and it gets picked up on before I’ve spent weeks on it. It means that I’ve had *something* uploaded from the very start, and been able to take on board criticism all along the way, as well as have some sort of demo to use as a jumping off point for collaborations. All of which has been invaluable.

Last year’s FAWM taught me the value of creating and moving on, and highlighted specific aspects of production and playing to focus my education on thereafter. In the year inbetween, I’ve taken on board the suggestions and criticism I’ve been given, and used that to build on the learning. BUT at the same time, I’ve realised how REALLY REALLY important it is to keep that criticism in mind as a guideline rather than a hard and fast rule. Because at some point, you’re going to start working the technical stuff out and if you have in your mind that “no, THAT way is wrong” it’s going to become huge issue. The creative stuff is pretty much your own anyway (and in terms of pure creative, I rarely take suggestions totally on board, because people just don’t enjoy the same things and I’m not about to change my entire mental process on the suggestion of someone who has a massively different preference to me. But, also, don’t disregard the creative suggestions entirely, cos that’s counterproductive too. Balance.)

This year’s FAWM has, again, been both productive and educational. I’ve had several “oh, riiiight!” moments whilst working out how to make THIS do THAT, and playing around with new bits of software, getting more deeply involved with my hardware, and experimenting with sound manipulation.

The rush to get something out there is insanely creatively freeing, and the short timescale is the relief from the limits involved. I couldn’t maintain it for, say, a year. At track 10, with 4 more to get done, I’m already twitching to go back to the first handful and apply some of what I’ve learned over the month. I’m completely ready to get my editing hat on. But, I’ll continue, because in less than a week, I can do just that.

There’s still a world of information and education to take on board, but I’m reaching a stage where I feel like I’m starting to develop my own sounds and style, considering the idea of performance, and may be at a stage where I’m looking to release something within the next year, so I’m feeling pretty okay about that.

Music Memory

This is a pretty lazy post since it kinda echoes something I just posted on facebook, but I want to write about it somewhere that isn’t going to get eaten up and lost in a week or so.

So, every so often, I recall a song from my teens, and go looking for it. In this case, it was Symposium’s ‘Disappear’. I knew it was on some sort of compilation or mixtape back then, but I hadn’t remembered that it was on a Kerrang cover tape from about 1994/5 until I found a playlist of that tape by accident on YouTube.

SMACK instantly back into 14 year old me’s mind, and I was in Germany for the first time, on a school exchange trip, where I first fell in love with the country and language and where this tape was on my walkman.

It’s funny that this comes right after reading a bit in the book I’m reading about how music evokes memories unlike any other sensory stimulant, and how music you haven’t heard for a long, long time has a far more potent effect than a song you’ve heard a lot over the years. And how it’s down to the associated memories being watered down over time as you link other moments in time to that piece of music.

Which made sense anyway, but I’m kinda enjoying experiencing it now. I’ve recalled the Symposium track here and there, so I have more memory links to it now. It’s not as watered down as a lot of things I listen to, like a lot of Levellers stuff for example, but it certainly links to more periods in my life than the original one. But just playing that Runescape song and I’m back on a coach in Germany, tired as hell, headphones in, almost dozing off. There was this German punk kid in combats and chains who knew my exchange partner, and 14 year old me obviously had a huge crush.

It’s been 21 years since I last heard that song, and I wouldn’t ever even have recalled it if I hadn’t found it again by chance. Those memories which have surfaced so rapidly now were buried deep, and without the music, I wouldn’t have recalled them.

If I heard these songs now, I doubt I’d give them a second thought. My taste in music has changed and developed so much over the years. But because they have this huge memory link for me, these songs that are so far removed from what I tend to love now, retain a huge emotional connection.